Wednesday, July 25, 2018

Double Entendres

hoping to get aroused
knowing it could be a ruse 
I choose to follow it anyway
it’s not everyday
I get a chance to smile
in fact it’s been a while

so I carry on 
speaking in double entendres
waving a wand with hopes
my spells will cast out
to catch a live one
and reel in some fun

but the waiting
is excruciating
while the bait hangs out
and gets tangled up
when I start looking 
for implied meaning

when no other meanings
are sewn in-between in
the lines I’m reading from
so I look dumb
raising my eyebrows
to a confused crowd

like I’m in on a twist
that doesn’t exist
but I insist I’m hip
to the jive as I slip
into a zone alone
of imagined entendres 

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

The Damage

I thought of you today
and the promise that I had made to you
and I wept bitterly
because I knew that I would keep it if I had to
I sobbed until my chest throbbed rhythmically
as I gasped for air
between the tears
It felt good to cry
It made me want to think of you even more
and the promise
and the damage
It made me want to wallow
in the idea of your pain and fear
which I could only begin to fathom
The tears soaked my beard
It felt good to cry
I imagined your pain
as worse as I could
I drenched myself in the idea of it
until I could take no more
As I recognized my own weakness
a ray of realization burst through
the clouds of my misconceptions
and I saw you for how strong you really are
your defiance never broken
You are a warrior
wounded in battle
but still continuing to fight
and winning all the time
You will never be defeated now
You will have the victory that you deserve

Sunday, July 15, 2018

Unspeakable

When acts of war have become unspeakable
either because the violence has become so brutal
or because the citizenry has become too sensitive
or some convenient combination of both

When valor is shunned because the name
for which it’s done has been desecrated
So what in the past was a source of pride
now becomes something unmentionable

A dark secret instead of a brave moment
festering while it yearns to be informing
conforming while it could be inspiring
Cold censorship to what was intended as heroism

But what drives this fear of hearing about the acts
that our monetary contributions have afforded
to be done so violently in our stead 
for what we are told to believe is our benefit

Sunday, July 1, 2018

The Prototype

I received
what I believed
to be information
on the creation
of a prototype
but it was just hype
for something they meant
for me to invent
for them in return
for the chance to learn
how to do it.
I said screw it.